2002-10-31 - 9:12 p.m. I've done this show a thousand times, this trick's so easy

So yeah my costume (purple french maid!) is so cute! I like it! People liked it. yeah! So umm my sister and ashi and Ade came over to give out candy, then they went to Ade's house to give out candy. I was too lazy to wlak around so I have been stealing from the candy that we have, and theres a bunch so its cool.

I have a new thing that I am drawing. I made little faerie people, that were invented in math class a couple days ago. They have big heads that are flat on top and pointy ears and hands and feet with curlies on the end (though the hands started out being very paw like, they are evolving) they have all different types of wings, and depending on who they are they wear sometimes more faerie like clothes and sometimes more people like clothes, they also only sometimes wear shoes. A lot of them have freckles. THey are all very cute. I have also started making them after a couple people I know, and other creatures I have seen. Maybe I should make them some animal friends. They are all just too cute! I should get some colored pencils and make some in colour and post some. Ok I'm done.

Well yeah. I am doing alright. I am really bored tonight. I guess I should maybe talk to some people or play sims or something. I was so going to do something just now but I forgot. Maybe I should watch tv. It is really cold. I think maybe I should try to find some warm clothing. That would be really nice. :) I am kind of tired too. I think I will go seek warmth and entertainment.

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2002-10-29 - 9:20 p.m. Its so hard to miss you, the way that I do

So like I talked to people online. And I tlaked to Nick and we had a nice conversation about just stuff, just a regular conversation. About regular stuff. It was nice. He shaved! Like hell froze over or something. And I told him about how I am gonna cut my hair and he said that would be cute and told me I could do it (cause I'm chicken) and stuff... just talking. But I do feel better. I;m just like really paranoid about stuff and yeah. But yeah I'm ok. Except I have homework! Homework is horrible! I need to do some!

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2002-10-29 - 7:35 p.m. when the letter said...

I stayed home today and made soup and played sims and watched tv and slept. I have come to the conclusion that the chances of me getting my nick back are very slim to none. I dont know. I'm really depressed again. No good, this is no good. I hate being like this! I still havent done all that homeowrk! I'm so dumb. Arg. Well yeah...

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2002-10-28 - 10:13 p.m. I'm feelin' a little low.

I need to do a lot of homework. Blah. I do not like homework. I am tired. I guess I better at least try... :P

I took a shower! I am all clean! Which is a really good thing. If I only had some clean clothes... I should do that tomrrow. That is a really good idea! MMM clean clothes would be really really nice to have. I mean it. Ok this is how messy I am.. that is so terrible. Ugh. Well anyway... homework.

My computer keeps freezing when I am playing sims... no fun! I have made it a habit to save more frequently. I also have been having trouble with fires. my sims need to learn to cook better. Cause they could die in a fire! That would suck!

Ok now I am really going to go do homework.

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2002-10-28 - 11:08 a.m. I'll take advantge while...

School REALLY REALLY SUCKS! Oh well. So I got up all early and ogt out the door on ie to get here early (mondays it starts a few minutes early) and so I go out early enough to get some food at the fast food place, and we get to the drive thru and they go really really slow... so I get to school, and I go to my locker which is like 20 feet from my class and the bel rings while I'm getting my book... and an administrator is standing right by me to get my name... stupid admin... what was I supposed to do? go to class without my book? yeah right. So yeah. I dont care what they do, I will claim that I don't know why he took my name if they do anything. Cause the new meanness person (you know person who does really mean things) is like super duper mean. So yeah. I am so wanting to get out of this horrible horrible school. So yah school is getting bad again. I dont like it, I was so happy. Everything goes wrong. Blah. I really dont like school. Maybe I will stay home tomorrow... depends on when the test in english is though... cause I wont miss that. Even though I havent really read the book... I will print out all the spark notes though and read those... cause then I'll have a better idea about what is going on. Cause there is no way I'm reading a whole book in one night. And shh I was too busy to do it this weekend. Really I was... anyway

I really want to go play sims. I started making at really big cool house last night, but I couldn finish cause I was way too tired. I was really close too... jsut a few more things of furniture and it would be done. but whatever... I'll finish it later. I wnat to play with my sims though!

I really do not like this stupid stupid school... I think I will maybe look into testing out again. I hate it here. Sort of... I dont know. We will see.

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2002-10-27 - 9:26 p.m. think I broke the wings off that little songbird...

I went to Santa Rosa for the council meeting today. I don't like spending lots of time in cars. It isn't that fun. but it was ok. Yeah.

Well the power went out for a bit it was kind of annoying. But it came back on soon enough.

I am not so well. I am all sad for some reason. But I dont know... well I guess I just really miss Nick... and well yeah. A lot. I do. And I think I really need him right now, you know for support and stuff. I miss him so much, I don't know what to do. It's been four months. I think that it has been long enough. Really really. :(

You know that when you wear high heels for awhile and then when you take them off your feet feel really funny, like your the front of your foot feels like it is lower... or something.

I guess I will go sleep or play sims or something.

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2002-10-27 - 10:10 a.m. breakfast of champions.

I think Nick and I were going to hang out yesterday... but somehow it didn't happen. I tried to call and no one was there... so I just went shopping.

I got some really cute shoes for my costume. that I'm going to have to learn to walk in (strappy black wedge like high heels) but I have really stubby toes so theres all kinds of extra space. oh well. so cute they are though. And I tried to get a new stylus cause mine broke, but they didnt have ANY palm V ones... only all of the other ones on the planet... I guess thay just dont love me.

I watched the simpsons, then carrie 2, the rage last night. they were very entertaining.

So I was talking to my sister... and I went to go find some food for break fast, and I decide on green tea ice cream, so then I get back to the computer and I see that she has just typed what I was about to type... Ice cream for breakfast! whee ok that was fun. :)

2002-10-25 - 11:54 p.m. Be careful what you do, because a lie becomes the truth.

I've been not having a good past few days. But oh well. I guess I will get over it. I went to the q-kids I guess halloween dance and it was pretty fun, except for the face that ALL of my friends hooked up with somone EXCEPT ME! ARG! I guess I will find someone someday... or get back someone... well anyway. I wonder if me and whatshisname are still on for tomorrow. I guess if he doesnt call me I will call him or something. It probably depends on if he remembers and if I am awake. I want to go... I want him... yeah umm yeah...

I need to sleep. I guess I will go to sleep. Nini!

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2002-10-24 - 12:02 a.m. shes never goingto fly to the top of the world

ok so I have like 80 tons of homeowrk from the past few days that I am NOT goibngto get done!!! whee! But yeah suzy came and we made grust! we have to print it though! and then mail it! We need to make the outside part, and that is it, and maybe do a little bit more decorating. This grust will be a lot different from the last one, but it will still be really good! I sadi that if people dont submit, they will be killing cute little kittens, I halso made an nall your submit are belong to us. Its pretty great. I like it. Less art than the last one, but more interesting reads. it is also less bulky. which is good, for the sake of price. I have sooo much work! I cant belive. Ok so suzy is a little computer illiterate, and I am the opposite, so it is a bit annoying sometimes... but whatever. I think it is neater and nicer. So yeah. I love her anyway. I guess I should at least try to do one math homework. heh!

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2002-10-22 - 9:56 p.m. kenny doughty is hott!

I'm bad and I stayed home again. I guess I really will have to go to school tomorrow. Well anyway, I was suppossed to go see a movie with audrey, but they werent showing it tonight (oops) so yeah I convinced my mom to take me to blockbuster and I got crush, it was so cute a total chick flick, it made me cry. I liked it a lot though. Umm yeah I can watch movies on my computer!!! YAY! Well yeah I really need to take a shower or else my mother will yell at me.

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2002-10-21 - 10:41 p.m. my love will fly to you each night on angels wings, godspeed

I stayed home today. I am so lazy, but really I was in pain (I still am) from the aids walk. I have to go to school tomorrow though. I am not quite looking foreward to it. I missed a a stupid test in my stupid chem class. BLEH! I have to reas act one of the crucible.. which I dont have so I'll read notes on it... I've seen the play so I hopefully wont be too behind. I hope I will be able to walk tomorrow without being like owowow. and stuff. I still have a bunch of homework from over the weekend that I didnt do. I got a new computer. Cause when I switched my old one with the other one like it wouldnt turn on, so new computer with me. Its all black and stuff its cool. and I got carrie on dvd. I like that movie. I dont want to go to school tomorrow :/ but I guess once I go it wont be so bad. blah. I am all bleh, cause bleh. I dont like being bleh, it is no fun. And fun is fun, so yeah! umm yah. I like havent stopped listening to the dixie chicks in a few days... maybe I should listen to something else some day... naw. ME and suzy are goin to work on grust on wednesday and thursday. I have something to do everyday this week. movie with audrey, then grust, then dance, then nick, then council meeting. That reminds me that I need to work on the tshirt design for jr high con. I have a cool idea but I need to get it on paper and stuff. whee! ok I guess I will go then. baibai

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2002-10-20 - 9:59 p.m. I'll bring you pearls of water on my hips and the love from my lips

I went to the AIDS walk today. I got hella blisters. It was good though. But my feet really hurt.. I cant wlak too well. I went out to lunch with people and it was ok. Then me and kevin went to audreys house, and we watched some friends episodes from the 1st season on dvd then we watched amelie. It is such a great movie. We are going to go on tuesday to see my big fat greek wedding. it should be cool. I am too busy latley. I need to get with suzy and be like we are doing grust NOW! And just get it over with. Cause yeah we both complain about how we cant get a hold of each other. I will call her tomorrow. Umm yeah. my feet hurt. ow. ok... I bet that I have homework to do... on 10 o'clock on sunday night! I really don't want to go to school tomorrow! I dont really have that much homework... but I am lazy. I guess I better go do it. I am really tired. I need sleep! EEP! sleep! ok baibai

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2002-10-19 - 9:35 p.m. long time gone, no I aint hoed a row since I don't know when

Juli's party was fun. IT was fun.. I got a bear. it is cute. Oh yeah so like jordans mom like wants to go to pflag and stuff. good ness.

So Nick and I are going to go to the castro street halloween fair probably. Thats cool.

I am going to walk for aids tomorow. I hope that people come. Really a lot. Yeah. But at least I'll have greg and bear. oh and frank and audrey prolly. yay! I cant wait... but I am really tired. Oh well.

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2002-10-19 - 3:07 p.m. bless their tortured tangled hearts

I went shopping. Last night and then today. I got a moose blanket, fabric for my haloween costume at the fabric store. I also got some black pants. I got really cute undies... they are great!!! They are mini boxer breifs... they are like boxer breifs, but shorter and for females! So cute! I really like them. :P I also got a really cute purple sweater and a grey sweatshirt thingy... I got a boom box, but I got home and found out that it doesnt play my cds cause it is retarted, so I'm going to take it back. I got the new Dixie Chicks album. It is really good. I like the Dixie Chicks, yes folks, I even like country. Whee. I am kind of sad cause Seans birthday party is today, but I am already going to Juli's birthday party today. Oh well. I got Juli Gremlins on dvd. I hope she likes it. I like that movie. Umm I got really cute wrapping paper and bow. And a card with a weiner dog on it, on a bun with katchup and mustard and a little party haat on and it says hot dog! another birthday!!!! Its so cute! I havent found a feather duster yet. I looked at all the stores we went to. I also cant find the right kind of lace... I'll find it eventually. Hopefully I will have the whole costume together by friday for the billy defrank teen dance thingy. or else I'll just have it for halloween. we will see. :)

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2002-10-17 - 5:24 p.m. cant hurry love

I am going to parties! YAY!!!! Parties are coolio. Jordan has been at a shelter, and a friends... his mom is really not okay with it... bleh. I love my Jordan. my kay hanley cd was in the car and I got it out. YAY! I am really tired. I want to sleep. I want my boyfriend back still. I'm not going to give up, I like that boy and I am going to have him back. I just wish there was a way to explain the extent of my feelings. Umm yeah. I'm going to have better computer really soon. YAY! I cant wait. I guess I'll go finish getting ready.

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2002-10-16 - 7:48 p.m. meow

I went to school. Arg I have a C in history. Stupid stupid miss Day! Oh well I will get it up. Umm yeah. I like had my monologue memorized but when I got to school I kept forgetting it. Like when I did it for people. I know it but I dont. It's ok though, we arent really like performing it yet. I'll do better with a little more practice. My mom told me no to taking me to the fabric store, but she drives my sister to and from fremont. arg. my face is all hot and stuff, its weird cause my hands are really cold.

So Jordan wasn't at school. He's like really in trouble. He came out to his mother. Somehow she didn't know (how that works I don't know!) but he said something about having to pack and like go away somewhere... well obviously that is not a very good thing. I hope he is alright. And I hope his mom is not like going totally psycho. I hope I see him again soon. He's my friend and I care a lot about him. I think I might cry.

I want my boyfriend back. But it seems a little more likley than it did before... we will just have to see how this unfolds.

I have like a buttload of homework to do today. Ohh like a few people from the youth group signed up for the aids walk I am excited. I sent emails to a few people to ask for pledges. If I get $105 more I can get a tshirt... I only have until sunday though. lalala

I guess I better go eat or whatever...

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2002-10-15 - 10:36 p.m. I dont happen to have a husband....

Whoo hoo! I got my monologue memorized. Hopefully I will still remember it in the morning. :)

I get to shoot my french husband.

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2002-10-15 - 9:32 p.m. Bat Boy!!!!

So we had to write poems for homework, I usually only write poems when I'm all depressed and really inspired, since I'm not that (I really did try to do a meaningful poem, two times they both really sucked) I decided to pick a topic and make a poem... the Weekly world news, so here it is!

On tuesdays I go to the grocery store. And I look on the magazine racks. I pilfer through TV Guides and cheap novels alike, then I find the one I will choose. None other will do, than the weekly world news.

I read about mobsters, see the girl on page 5, I learn aboutwhos kissing who. How fat the one cat is, how elvis does live, all in my beloved, weekly world news.

I see funny pictures, I look for Bin Laden, I see angry Ed Anger's rants. Read up on Bat Boy; hes fighting or missing. Then I find outwhat poor soul Dottie's dissing. In the weekly world news.

The world it is ending, I'll do a crossword, then find out my tarot card fortune. and last but not least, I'll learn useless fact, it's there in the trivia portion. You'll find these in the weekly world news.

So whether it's aliens, psychics or dogs, theres one place to read all this stuff. Only $1.79 it looks mighty fine, every week on a tuesday, make sure to go out and purchase the weekly world news!

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2002-10-15 - 4:52 p.m. Disco lives!

2002-10-14 - 9:38 p.m. sorry to disturb your rest

Umm yeah. I went to school and it was school like. We have a chem teacher now, we did stuff that we have already done before. So yeah. I went to the fabric store and failed to find fuzzy purple fabric but I did get a pattern though. Umm ok if two people like each other and miss each other why shouldnt they be together? arg! ok but yeah me and nick are going to hang out some time... we are having a little bit of trouble trying to plan... as were both busy a lot and theres no trains on the weekends and all that... we will see. well yeah, ok I guess I will go.

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2002-10-13 - 11:30 p.m. taste the stardust in my mouth

2002-10-10 - 8:47 p.m. A thai flavoured adventure.

I spent a long time making thai food tonight. I made spring rolls that were pretty good, good satay, and ok pad thai (the pad thai needs a lot of work) I guess I jsut need more practice. Everything has fish sauce in it... I'm not so sure how much I like fish sauce. I also made some thai iced tea. MMM. it was a bit too exctiting. I think next time I am going to go out to get thai food. I could have gone to saturn, but I was cooking, oh well.

2002-10-07 - 10:03 p.m. some people!

well fer SOME reason, my dad likes to eat all of my food! I had the last peice of pie that I was goingto eat and he ate it, and then Icaught him tryingto eat my macaroni!!! ARG! I should get a big safe and lock up all my food! grr

2002-10-07 - 9:26 p.m. Dont worry, be happy

I was late to school today, they have a weird schedule on mondays where people get out early, unless you have 7th period in which case you get like an hour of nothing to do. And 2dn starts earlier so I forget and I am slways late to history on mondays and my teacher was a little mad at me. oh well. So my friend is being initiatied into being a thesbian this week and he had to be a cats (the musical) fan and be a cat and wear leg warmers and stuff and meow when we said his name... tomorrow he is going to be a homey. :) yay go thesbians! Umm... so they wont let us eat in the place we usually eat at lunch so we went o mr maples class. he is pretty cool and he doesnt mind us going there at lunch, or at least he seems not to mind, he might, but is jsut being nice. who knows! Anyway in english we did this open mic knid of thing and I played ring of fire, but I changed the words and everyone loved it. YAY! it was cute and funny and I played guitar. yay!I need a monologue for drama. I think I have one but it is a little whacky. It is about setting penguins in the zoo free! whee! So I had like 3 paragraphs in here, but I noticed that they were all really short and all about school so *boom* they are one.

I went to mah sisters house tonight and we played ddr and the sims and it was fun. I just really should have been doing homeowrk. I think she had work to do too... it was still fun! I need to define about a thousand words for my history notebook. oopies! whee! I did like all but 3 word problems for math... I need to write 3 paragraphs for english, umm what else? *checks palm pilot* nothing else! yay

In between 6th and 7th I got my mom to take me to get a milkshake and then I went to the thrift store and got a purple shirtand shorts and a mickey mouse clock that is kind of messed up but ill get it right eventually. It isnt quite right... maybe if I mess with it more it will get closer to telling the right time. well you get what you pay for. before it was too fast and now its too slow

well I ought to get on my tons of work that I'm not going to get done cause i am really tired. Night!

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2002-10-06 - 12:34 a.m. The ants go marching one by one hurrah!

I stayed home all day today. I watched a lot of tv, I also did a couple of other things. I was not up to making my new website, but I made a site for my birthday party and all that. I am yet to post it, I need to run it by kevin (its his party too) and make sure that the location is set. I also made a pie. It is chocolate meringue (I learnes how to spell meringue!) It is like REALLY sweet and rich. And I left it in the ove a bit longer that I should have so it is a little bit browner than it shoul be but its still ok. I think it is a little goopier than it should be because I am impatient. The pie was easy, the hard part was waiting for it to set a lot and stuff. Other than that I really didn't do much. I talked to people and I took a nap and stuff. I guess I should go to sleep though I would rather watch the telly... oh well. Night!

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2002-10-04 - 10:40 p.m. do what you want, yeah

2002-10-03 - 11:17 p.m. life is kind of like one of those human pyramids....

School was same as always. I dressed like Bubbles and it was fun. my dumb dad was at a doctors appointment so I had to take the stupid bus home and I didnt get home till almost 6! EEP! Slow busses!

We are having an "open mic" thingyin english, like we are taking a theme from the scarlet letter and we are making some type of art. I made some new words for ring of fire by johnny cash and I am goingto play guitar with it. YAY! So yeah. I also need to find a monologue for drama. that is our next big project. I hope I can memorize a thingy, I have not a good memory, but I think that if I can memorize songs then I will probably do ok with a couple minutes of a monologue. I did homework and stuff. I finished about a boy. It is a really great book. I need to find some other book that is very interesting to read or else I will never get all of my reading for english done.

My dad got me a new keyboard. YAY! Soon I will have the other computer and maybe it will actually work (unlike some computers I know *ahem!*) And like not crash every 2 minutes. I likE my keyboard, it has allthe letters written on it. It has those nifty little shortcut kets on it too, I dont know it they actually work and the answer is probablu not. but it wells you which arethe shortcut keys for like control plus whatever. if that makes any sense. Ok here I am blabbing on about a keyboard... I think I already did that this week more than once.

I should really go to sleep but I do not feel so tired, even though I am really tired and stuff. Whee. I am still sneezing all the time. I need a new prescription for allergies cause I havent really had it in a really long time and I think I need it.

I guess I am off to go try and sleep or something. I hope I am successful. I need to find another book to read cause then I can read until I fall asllep and I dont lay there thinking about stupid things while I could be reading. Ok I am done! Night Night!!!!!

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2002-10-02 - 9:17 p.m. Please be strong, wave goodbye, and dont look down!

2002-10-02 - 7:10 p.m. the joy and the laughter!!!!!

Today was ok. I think I did OK on my history test. I did my lip synch for drama and I was REALLY nervous. But I did ok. My mommy is nice and got me a soda after school.

Tomorrow is super hero day at school, so I put together a Bubbles outfit. I have a blue skirt and a blue tank top (the skirt is too bark but whatever) and my mom helped me make a little black middle thingy. and I put on china flats and white socks and put my hair in piggy tails and there we go! Hooray! Cause I'm cool like that! I was going to make a cape, but I decided bubbles would be better. I thought about bringing my bubbles doll but I dont know where she is. Then I thought about a stuffed squirell then I thought about an octopus, but I dont have these things.

My allergies are bothering me a lot today it is no good. I've been sneezing all day. *sneeze* no good!

So I think maybe I'll be daria for all hallows, but I did make a design for the maid Idea... we will see.

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2002-10-01 - 9:35 p.m. why dont you suck on my salty chocolate balls...

2002-10-01 - 8:13 p.m. You say you want a revolution...

Guesss what! New month, new page!!!!

I am tired! I need to do homework though. I got bored and learned about keyboards. qwerty and all that. People think that qwerty is stupid, and some people really like it. I dont see waht the big deal is. I guess some people have way too much time on their hands. Maybe they are data entry people and all they ever do is type type type so then they get all messed up in their hands and they think they can type faster with other keyboard layouts. I guess that makes sense.

I think I want a purple french maid outfit or all hallows. but I'm not sure. I think that that would be hella cute, especially if it were purple. I could even get purple shoes. Wouldnt that be great? I think so.

I should be doing my homework. I should have done my homework a long time ago but I did not and now I have to do it. I feel kind of stupid for bringing my history book home but forgetting my notebook. That was kind of dumb. So I took all these heavy books home and I could have left one there. Unless I had brought my notebook... whatever.

I totally want to make a new website. I dont know where to put it though. I have no clue. I want to make the pcd yruu website too. That would be fun. I dunno though. I'm lazy and I dont really have a lot of extra time on my hands and stuff. But I have time to yak on about nonsense on here... whatever. Maybe I will jsut make a new layout and stuff for here. Maybe that would quench my thirst for designing stuff. Or something. But I want a website, not that I have anything to put in it. I think that diary entries would be the most interesting part. But it would be useful to have somewhere to post pictures and stuff. I guess. Whatever.

I still need to do my homework. Homework is boring though. :-P talking to people and surfing is so much more interesting. Unless you count reading. Cause I am reading about a boy and it iis so like a really good book. I should get more really good books. I should also start reading earlier at night and stuff. Then there will be more time to read... or something. I am babbling on for like a year, actually it has only been like 10 minutes. I have written many entries that are much longer but I guess those involved more thought than this one. I am jsut writing whatever I think of at the time.

I think that I should go do homework. I should also not sit around and complain about how I should do homework. That would be good. I am going to go on forever and bore everyone. I guess I will go and not do homework. :P adios!!!

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